I’m Romany … or Romany Suicide … I’m a Suicide Girl … an alt model … Alt being tattooed or pierced … Not the conventional looking model … I’ve been modeling since I was eighteen … I will be thirty-two in two weeks … don’t tell anyone (laughter) … That’s quite a few years of modeling … I mean … there were some off years … but … that’s quite a few … My life is completely different then our last interview … which … when was that? … October? … November … ok … December 17th … My boyfriend of two years broke up because he wants kids … I don’t … I had ascertained that I didn’t want kids the whole time … He was … just really hopeful that I would change my mind … So … It was a really hard breakup … because we still really love each other … It’s a goal of his … to have kids … And I don’t understand that whole thing … That whole mindset … I have no desire to have kids … It’s just foreign to me … It’s like trying to teach a monkey trigonometry … I’m the monkey … that’s trigonometry … I don’t need it … I’m not going to get it … I don’t understand it … I have an IUD … so I’m basically sterile … thankfully … so that’s nothing I think about or worry about … I don’t have any goals about being a mother … So we broke up right before Christmas … It was a rough time … I was sick on Christmas … so that sucked … It’s April third now … so it will be four months on my birthday since we broke up … April 17th is my birthday … It’s been a rough four months … Yeah … I pretty much cried every day for quite a while … Finally … I wasn’t crying … I did cry t he other day for the first time in a while … something popped into my head that he had said … so I sent him some stuff … though texts … to get it off my chest … I don’t know … I got upset … he replied … we still kind of talk here and there … It’s hard for him too … because we both love each other … we just … want different things out of life … Which is not something I ever thought I would experience … because I’ve dated alcoholics … or abusive people … or you know … whatever … So … those breakups were because of horrible things … How do you leave someone that you love? … Now … I’m just focusing on me … I have no interest in dating ever again … I don’t see that changing … I don’t have much of an interest in others … Like I said … focusing on me … working a lot … trying to work … and do more modeling … book more shoots … which is hard with scheduling … and work conventions … and promote myself … and just get out there … and do new things … with new people … work with new people … Other then that … when I’m not doing photoshoots … or collaborations with artists … I’m pretty much just working or sleeping … I started doing early shifts … where I get up at four something … or five something a.m. … and it’s nice to get off at one or two p.m. … It’s still daylight … you have the whole day … I’m just a night person … so I pretty much go back to sleep … or I take a nap that lasts the rest of the day as soon as I get off work … Some of that … probably a lot of that ism depression … My day job? … I’m a PepsiCo merchandiser … I go to the stores … different stores … and I stock what the truck drivers drop off in the back room … they drop off … sometimes five pallets of merchandise … I’ll work that … I’ll see what’s missing on the shelves … I’ll write down what’s out … I’ll just work all that stuff … I’ll just bring it all out … whatever needs to go out … The Walmarts can be hard because sometimes they have thirteen pallets of stuff … That’s kind of frustrating … It’s a very physical kind of job … which I enjoy a lot … it keeps me in shape … I Dom’t really need to go to the gym anymore … I haven’t been to the gym in a while … I like doing physical work … because it feels good … I don’t like sitting at a desk … or having a desk job … I had that once … and I didn’t like it … I like being physical … being out and about … not directly having to deal with costumers … I get to do … as long as I do my job … I get to do it … and I don’t really have to deal with much … usually … So it’s nice … because it’s not like I have someone … breathing down my neck the whole time or anything … or just watching me … so … it’s cool … We stock the stored …. The sales reps … they order the products … they’re above us … So … if we do something wrong … they might get pissed off … and say something to our direct boss … and then he’ll be … “Why didn’t this get stocked? … Why didn’t you build that display” … So we all have work phones … work iPhones … that they give us … and we use them to clock in … and clock out … keep in touch with the sales reps … and each other … It’s kind of like a lot … you have to keep in touch with everyone … and … “Oh … Are we building a display tomorrow … What’s going on Saturday” … You’re still pretty much on your own … It’s nice … it’s not super complicated … It’s a very male dominated career … I’m the only female merchandiser at our plant … There’s one female sales rep … she used to merchandise … but then she moved up to sales rep … so … they don’t really have stock all the stuff … they just mostly order … Then there’s the two secretaries are female … I’m pretty much the only one amongst the guys … The guys … they don’t treat me poorly … no … I don’t know if I’ll ever be one of the “Guys” … Which is what I’ve always wanted to be … is just one of the guys … I don’t know if I’ll ever truly be seen that way … They’re all fair with me … As long as I do my job … and I’m good at it … and I’m a lot stronger then I look … I’m fairly petite looking I suppose … but I’m really quite strong … and I do a lot of work … I pull 2000 pound pallets of 24 packs … that could be hard for anyone … but you kind of get used to it … you start using all these different muscles … that you never really worked before … the whole body gets worked … and you just get stronger and stronger … so it’s nice … I like it … it makes me feel empowered … Recent modeling? I had a few months after the breakup … where I was just kind of floundering … Not doing too much because I was … just trying to get over that period of time … Now … I’m jumping back into the modeling … and I just had … two photos that I did with a photographer that are on Italian Vogue … photo Vogue section of their website … So that’s really awesome … that it’s published on their website …I hope to get into the magazine eventually … I’ve got a lot of plans in the works … different things I want to do … It just takes time … It’s just a matter of time really … as far as the Bernie shirt … I have been pretty busy … but I do keep up on Bernie Sanders … I was having a rough day … one morning I woke up and I think  I had a rough night … emotionally … not feeling good for the day … and I checked Instagram … The first post that I saw was Bernie announcing that he was running again … and I was so happy … that just made my day … it turned my mood right around … He had said before that he wasn’t going to run for president … so … that just made me so happy … I do keep up with him … I trust him … we have the same values and morals and beliefs … I’ve donated to his campaign … and I’ve bought a shirt … I hope to buy another shirt … I don’t know … I’m kind of a nerd I guess … I think he’s what we need for this country … I try not to get too political … Usually on Facebook … I’ll go on some rant … or post all this stuff … Some of my friends get offended because they have different beliefs then I do … Whatever … Sit and spin (laughter) … I love him … he’s been fighting for the little man since even before the sixties … The news … it’s pretty depressing … a lot of it … I have some Filipino friends that I work with … and one of them was really happy when du turk was elected for um … I think the president of the Philippines … or … And then I’ve heard all these crazy things … anybody caught using drugs will be killed … really extremest stuff … So … I don’t know … It’s a depressing state of affairs everywhere really … I try to just … stick to what I know … because … it’s not like my beliefs are going to change … No ones going to change my mind … so … unless I was to read something factual … that was negative about this or that person … If something was to come up about Bernie Sanders that was proven … then I would lose my belief in him … There’s a lot of stupid people in the world …. I try not to pay attention to what they say or do … What else is going on? … A buddy and I are going to see Mastodon in June … We got the VIP tickets … meet and greet … so that’s going to be cool … In November … That same friend and I saw Henry Rollins … during his photography tour … where he exhibited his photography from all around the world … because he travels a lot … He told the stories behind all the photographs … Henry Rollins is just an amazing person … Wonderfull speaker … Wonderfull person … Wonderfull values … so that was really enjoyable … I did the meet and greet … So I got to take prom pictures with Henry Rollins … I’ll have to show you those … It was in Chicago … I cant remember where … I’m not from Chicago … so all the venues … all the theaters … It’s a super well known theater … They all kind of sound the same … It was pretty great … I want to go skydiving again this year … when the weather gets better … I want to try some indoor rock climbing … there’s some places around that I’ve heard about that are pretty good … I’m just going to try to be active … and try knew things … I want to travel … I plan on getting my passport … finally … I’m saving up for a car too … so that’s kind of a pain … But maybe I’ll be able to take a trip somewhere as well … if I’m frugal … It would be nice to get out of the state … or maybe the country … As far as this project … I love it … I think it’s really interesting … It’s just cool … because you don’t really get to know the people in the pictures from other works  … of art … or photography … or modeling … You see someone in either a scene or a situation … posing … or maybe they’re not posing … they’re just in the photo … and you wonder … I do at least … I’m always wondering … I kind of conjure up these ideas in my head of … what that person might be like … what their day to day life might be like … To kind of make up a story in my head … And now … you can actually know that person … and … a pictures worth a thousand words … but then you do get to learn more about the person in the picture and see that theres more then what meets the eye … that there’s depth to that human being … which I really like because … with photography and modeling a lot of times … it’s just … you see a subject … you don’t see the other sides of them … of their personality … so … I find this project really interesting … I’m just kind of weird … I really like to look at pictures of people … like think of things … and then to actually be able to read factual things about them … experiences that they’ve had … It’s really gratifying in a way … But that’s just me … I’m really kind of weird (laughter) … I just like art … I want to start on my own photography this year too …